I am getting good now at GETTING all these perceftion shifts and shock techniques as in a way I finally relate it correctly to the gym principle of once your body gets used to a certain routine, you need to change your routine to get the maximum results.
At times like this I feel dangerously on fire yet I am humbled as I feel the my center is hollow inside due to lack of progress in other areas and due to my ongoing trust issues which makes me socailly skittish and a reason why I reading a lot of books on GAME THEORY and Robert Greene books (The 33 Strategies of War is one I recommend) to try and help in these areas.
I am always one of the first ones to over an olive branch at the trust, cos in order to ahve trust someone needs to be the first to trst and bred trust, hence where my problems lie and manefiest from, due to experience you don't know how far to trust and vice versa with the other one, therefore I shut down which in turns complicate things.
I know I need to use what I have around me to mke the best possible outcomes for myself, but I feel at times I am failing.
I have moved places, but am basically a hermit in the new place as those types of people I don'r really asssociate with and am having a bit of an elistist attitude towards them which i know is taking a step back on the other hand some ofmy elistist attitudes are right.
When people say that they don't trust people, I don't beleive them as one must trust the other person to a certain degree, so I tend to think they are hiding something or in denial for whatever reason.
Running away to another coutnry want help my problems as moving form place to place has proving me this.
I am jsut a bit confused as where to go at the moment, but I know I will eventually overcome this problem as I have a lot of BELIEVE in myself
Belief IS Reality
ps:-Once again, the default spacing is driving me bonkers!!!